Sunday, January 31, 2016


I am now in Emergency Medicine (EM) posting. Ever since I was a little kid, I had been always fascinated by the ER show *insert the theme song here* Yeah, I blamed my aunt who gave me such influence ever since I was a little and innocent kid. Hence, I always dream that I would be an EM Physician one day (I'm still considering it) and I've been always looking forward for this posting. And now, here I am.

ER Cast. I love Dr Greene (3rd from right) and Dr Carter (1st from right)

Honestly, in A&E department, things weren't like what the TV show had portrayed. It was different. Totally different. Mind you that it wasn't always patients came with V-tach and needed defibrillation. It wasn't always chaos all the time, with bloods everywhere, patients screaming of pain and the doctors running around here and there.

I always love to spend my time in Emergency Department (ED) even though I didn't usually spend most of my time there. But I just love the adrenaline rush and the vibes that ED always gave me whenever I went there. I liked to be in the procedure room in the green zone where I could observe, assist and even did the minor procedures like do the blood taking, dressing, suturing (T&S), opening the sutures, limb immobilization like applying the splint and many more. I love suturing. Although I wasn't that good like some of my friends but I just love to stitch and suture. Oh, please don't judge me in a creepy way :)

Nevertheless, last week had gave me so many remarkable and amazing memories that I could never forget in my entire life. 

I was in red zone that day. At first, it was calm. The patients was not as many as in the other zones (yellow, green, blue and CARRS). But then, one by one started to come. There were so many procedures and interesting cases that I could observe and learn on that day. I did offer to give a help to some of them; like applying the nasogastric tube, intubation (basically I just hold the ambu bag, lol), exposing the patient, transferring the patient, fill in the blood forms etc. But the best part was, I was able to perform the CPR for the first time on a real patient. Yes, CPR! CPR is actually one of the procedures in our curriculum that required us to perform. Perform, not observed nor assist! 

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Mind you that I haven't go to Basic Life Support (BLS) course yet (BLS is a course where you will learn how to save people like how to do CPR, and if you encounter people with chocking, what will you do etc. You'll get a certificate for that). I was supposed to go on next week. What I knew about CPR was based on my knowledge 3 years ago when there was Anaesthesia Day in my university where the anaesthesiologists had taught us about CPR and stuffs. At first I was afraid. What if I did was wrong? There were the specialists, registrars, MOs and nurses around and I was a medical student who her knowledge on CPR was quite rusty and hadn't perform a real CPR (except on the mannequin, but heck..does it even count?). But I just did anyway. Well, it was time I grabbed this chance. Not to forget with the adrenaline rush that pumped through my veins, the sweats. Only Allah know how I felt at that time. Luckily the specialist, MOs and nurses were so supportive. They gave us (medical students) chances to perform CPR. 

In the end, we couldn't save the patient despite of all the efforts that we'd pulled through. RIP dear uncle. 

Anyway, I did enjoy EM posting so far. I'm looking forward to learn more and improve my skills. Honestly, I have so many things that I'm lacking of; knowledge, skills and the list goes on and on. And to tell you the truth, I have always this kind of inferiority complex that running through me whenever I'm with my friends. I just feel that I am not competent enough. 

Okay, that's all. Too much rambles tonight. Till then.

Dr. Mark Greene: Don't ever say you're sorry. See, there's two kinds of doctors... there's the kind that gets rid of their feelings, and the kind that keeps them. If you're gonna keep your feelings, you're gonna get sick from time to time - that's just how it works.

Dr. Mark Greene: People come in here and they're sick and dying and bleeding, and they need our help. Helping them is more important than how we feel. But it's still a pain the ass sometimes.

Here's the quote that I love the most from ER. It was the scene where Dr Carter (at that time was a medical student) had a mental breakdown and Dr Greene came to cheer him up and gave him an inspiring advice. Click here to watch the video.

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

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