Friday, May 29, 2015


Okay. Give me a break. I'm sorry if I have to mix my language here with BM. Dah tak larat nak fikir. Ni pakai main lanyak je nak tulis apa.

So sekarang ni posting Anaesthesia untuk 2 minggu. Seriously memang menguji sungguh. Tiap tiap hari aku rasa mentally and physically exhausted. Pagi pergi OT sampai tengahari. Petang kelas sampai 5 pm. Pastu malam nak prepare untuk esoknya. Tapi bila maghrib tu aku dah rasa layu dan mengantuk. Memang dah macam sayur la pendek kata. 

Tapi I love Anaesthesia. Posting ni seronok. Cumanya semput sikit la nak catch up. Ni pun aku banyak gila tak study (Dah tahu banyak tak study tapi sempat lagi nak update blog kan). 

Dan pagi tadi aku dapat berita yang exam kitorang bakal diawalkan sebab nak avoid raya. Itu bermakna posting Ortho nanti instead of 3 minggu jadi 2 minggu. Mak aiii.. 

Tu sahaja untuk kali ni. I hope that I can survive this posting! 

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Thursday, May 28, 2015

A new look!

Hello there! 
So as stated above, I decided to make a makeover to my blog. It just came across my mind. I was mentally and physically exhausted with my new posting (Anaesthesia) so I decided to take a break to make some changes to my precious blog :)

Well, it was plain and simple. That was least I could do. Heeee :)

I still remembered that the last header had been used since 2010. It was 5 years ago. Man, this blog had grown up so fast! 

Okay, that's all from me. I wished I could write more but I got a very tight schedule. Even though so, I loved this posting. Hahaha. I still remembered that I once used to dream of being an anaesthesiologist. Well, it wasn't that bad. I thought of reconsider it :)

Till then,
Good night.

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Sunday, May 24, 2015

EOP : Psychiatry 2

Last Friday I had finally finished my Psychiatry posting. I had sat for my theory papers which consisted of MCQ, MEQ and SEQ papers. 

For MCQ, we had to answer 30 questions. For MEQ, we had a case on Neuroleptic Malignant Syndrome (NMS). We had to discuss about the sign and symptoms, the investigations and also the management for the case. As for SEQ, we had two questions. 

1. About different types of anxiety disorder, definition of panic and agoraphobia & management of panic disorder.

2. 4 medical conditions related to opioids, signs and symptoms of opioid intoxication and withdrawal & management of opioid related disorder. 

I had to say that it was quite okay. I had done my best. Hopefully I could passed this posting. 

Next posting will be the Anaesth-Radio-Ortho block. I will start with Anaesthesiology posting first for two weeks, and then Radiology for two weeks and Orthopaedics for three weeks. 

This upcoming posting will be a nerve-wrecking and hectic posting. I might go on hiatus or emotionally unstable. Just kidding! But I do hope that I will enjoy this upcoming posting :)

Till then,

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

EOP : Psychiatry

Assalamualaikum and good evening.

So today I just had finished my End of Posting (EOP) exam for Psychiatry. Mind you that Psychiatry was not my cup of tea. Nevertheless, I decided to do my best for this exam.

As usual, I got very anxious starting the night before the exam had started. I just felt that I couldn't sit properly, worried about how am I going to perform during the exam, I couldn't concentrate to study (Please don't do this! Last minute study is not practically a good idea) and the list went on and on. 

Later that night I decided to go to the bed early. No caffeine intake but of course I couldn't help on checking my hand phone for the last minute before I went to bed. (Well, my sleep hygiene was partially fair, I must say) And not to forget I put down my notes and DSM-5 right beside my pillow; hoping for all the information in there would be osmosis during REM (Rapid Eye Movement). I knew it sounded ridiculous and I was being delusional but hey.. I could hope right? (Just kidding!)

I still remembered that I got a dream about the upcoming exam. In my dream, it was clearly shown that I got a case of alcohol (substance abuse). I was terrified because the patient looked kind of scary (with messy hair and dirty clothes). Suddenly, I woke up from my sleep. I couldn't even started interviewing him yet in my dream. Ah.. What a waste!

For the exam, we got two stations:

1. The modified long case. We needed to clerk and get a history from the patient and do the mental state examination (MSE) within 10 minutes. After that, there would be a Q&A session with the examiner for another 10 minutes. Total = 20 minutes.

2. Clinical Viva. We would be given a case scenario and then we needed to discuss it with the examiner. Duration = 10 minutes.

I had waited patiently for my turn (I was the 13th candidates out of 21). And still, I was very anxious and hoped that I could go back home soon!

For the station 1, I got a case on substance induced mania episode. (It was just like in my dream though it wasn't alcohol!)That was what I had told the examiner what my provisional diagnosis even though I was still in doubt that he could be having Bipolar Type I Disorder in manic episode. For the station 2, it was a case of substance induce psychosis (Again, it was substance induced case!) I was kind of sad because there were lots of things that I forgot to ask. To be honest, I felt that I could do much better in both stations. My viva station had been just suck. I just hoped that I could pass this exam. I would be grateful enough :)

But..Please don't take it seriously about my dream. It was just a coincidence. Nothing much. But I still remembered that one of the specialists had gave us a good and loving advice on the night before the exam started. She asked us about our preparation for the exam and told us to pray a lot. Do solat Hajat and pray that you'll be given a good examiner, cooperative patient and easy case. I had always admired her ever since I was in this posting because her motherly side was shown in her personality. She was very caring, loving and kind. I was once entered her consulatation room and watched the way she consulted a patient and his family members. Subhanallah. She was what a doctor that everyone wished to seek for! I wished to be like her one day, insyaAllah :)

Alhamdulillah I had just finished my first day of exam. Even though I wished I could do better, but I was grateful to Allah because He had helped me a lot throughout this entire day. I felt so blessed. 

That's all from me. I needed to study for my theory paper in this upcoming Friday. Please make du'as for us will ya'?

Till then,

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Friday, May 15, 2015

Let's talk about mental health

My current posting is Psychiatry and to be honest, I actually don't like it at the very first place. Why? Because you know it isn't that challenging like other postings. In fact, you have to deal with insane people. That's what I thought. 

But after a few weeks in this posting, it totally have changed my perspective about it. Mental illness is a very serious problem in the society. Many of us are having one, but only a few of us want and willing to seek for treatment in health care services. This is due to the social stigma; people will labelled those who went to the psychiatrist as 'crazy' hence they are not willing to share about their problems and prefer to deal it alone. They do not have guts to seek a doctor for help. Little that they know that it hurts from inside and slowly taking a toll on their life.

There is a lot of mental illness. They are schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, major depressive disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Panic Disorder, Sexual disorder like pedophilia and many more (just to name a few). When we see people talking to themselves, behave aggressively, we quickly judge them. We tend to label them 'insane' or 'crazy' and hence avoid them. But do we really know what they are having and dealing with? They might be hearing voices that talking to them and command them to do things that they would never want to. We often see these people who are mentally ill as a threat and afraid to go near them.

“Generally, there has been an increasing burden of mental health problems over the past 10 years and it is expected to rise over the next 20 years unless measures are taken to address those issues,” The Star, August 2014.

According to the World Health Organization, depression is expected to be the leading cause of disability by 2020.

You can read more here.

Based on the statistics, more Malaysians are expected to suffer mental health problems. This could be due to the job-related stress, unemployment, high-living costs and relationship problems. Some people might say that, "just because of these things and you got depressed? You must be kidding me!" 
Well, you might be good in handling the stress, but some people are just not. They might be thinking way too far and then boom! They have depression or bipolar disorder.

Not every Malaysians know and aware about this issue because they don't get enough explanation and exposure about it. We need to create more awareness to the society about this issue. 

Take home message: 
If you don't feel good, you feel like you are not acting like usual or you feel you want to talk to somebody, don't be afraid or shy to seek for treatment. It doesn't have to be you, it might be your family or friends.

Spread the awareness and stop being judgmental.

Till then,

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Read more :

1. Mental Health - The Facts
2. Mental Health

Friday, May 8, 2015

Happy 22nd Birthday!

Happy 22nd Birthday to me! 
Hahaha. I'm getting older. It's a fact. It's nothing to be proud or ashamed of.

I hope that as I grow older, my deeds are also increase. I hope I can contribute more to this ummah. I do wonder,  22 years of living in this world, what have I contributed to His path? Towards the Ummah? 

till then, 

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Local students VS Overseas students

So recently there was news about students who studied local and abroad. The local student claimed that those who studied abroad had so much fun; had high allowance money and travelled here and there. Then the overseas student claimed about how grateful the students were because whenever they felt homesick, they can just simply go back home without thinking about the class, the flight tickets, etc. Not to mention that they could attend their siblings wedding ceremony and all the family gatherings.

This topic was a very hot topic. There were debates everywhere in the social media. Frankly speaking, both parties, of course, wanted to defend themselves. I didn't say that this party was right and that party was wrong. You see, it wasn't a big deal anyway. It was kinda funny when people were fighting about this. I thought that 'Ain't nobody got time that for that!' Man, I was wrong!

In my point of view who is a local student, I admitted that sometimes I got jealous of my friends who were studying abroad. New people, new places, different cultures and all that.. Especially looking at those pictures they had been uploading when they went for holidays in Facebook, Twitter or Instagam. Who doesn't want it? I had been dreaming to further my studies abroad ever since I was little but hey.. Look at me now. I'm here in my beloved country, Malaysia and currently struggling to finish my medical school. It didn't sound so pathetic or sad as far as I'm concerned. I didn't feel regret or ashamed of it because I knew that Allah had planned everything for me and He is the best Planner.

But yeah, it wasn't that bad. I believe that there were pro and cons in studying whether local or overseas. But the thing that does really matter is YOU! How did you do in your study?

Let's say if you studied here, how is your time management? What do you do during your free time? Are you busy hang out in the shopping mall with bunch of your friends? Are you busy line up to watch the latest movie? Are you busy cafe-hopping? Are you busy 'lepak' in mamak stalls? How do you spend your allowance? I know sometimes it feels like it is not unfair because our allowance here in Malaysia is not high compared to those who studied abroad. Plus, sometimes in our course (like me for example) we need to travel here and there. But actually if you do your budget, organize it properly, it wouldn't be so bad. I don't say that I'm good in managing my finances, but we need to start from now. It is never too late.

Regarding the financial, here's some tips for you:

1. Don't eat at the fancy restaurants, fast foods
I do have to admit that sometimes I do need to take fast foods because of the time. But if you reduce it, let's say you only take it once or twice a month, you will realize that you can spend a lot! Just ignore what your friends have posted in Instagram. Well, you are not going to die if you don't eat at the fancy restaurant! I do eat at the fancy restaurant, but only in certain occasions like celebrating our EOP exam. Just don't eat regularly.

2. Plan your budget.
Make a list of what you have spent and record it for the entire week. At the end of the month you will know what you should cut on, how much you have spent and how much you have saved.

3. Only buy the necessary things.
I know it's hard, especially for girls. The moment you scrolled the Instagram, you can see a lot of those instashop who made very great deals. Don't be easily being tricked. You should know your budget first. Then think again, is it really necessary for you to buy it? If you buy it, will your allowance be enough for you till the end of this month? Tbh I'm not a fan of online shopping thing. This is because I'm afraid of this scam people, and plus I don't even have an online banking! (Just recently sign up on on last March because I just need to! If not, I won't do it)

4. Start saving.
Ever since we are little, we are being taught of to have this saving habit. So, why don't you do it anymore? The more you get older, the more you need the money. Isn't that so? Start saving from now even though it is only a few cents. It's okay. By the end of the year, you will know how much that you have saved! And if you have a hobby that requires a lot of money like me (for example: travelling), start saving up from now on. If you feel jealous over your friends who study abroad who always go for vacation, why don't you try to do it too? Well, I know, a trip to the UK might cost you thousands, but travelling doesn't mean you have to go to a fancy country. You can start to travel within our country first. It isn't half bad. Have you been to Sabah and Sarawak? Have you been to all the beaches here in Malaysia? Come on!

So that's all that I can think about right now. I'm sorry for the grammatical errors and all. 

Till then.

without wax,
haniyahaya :)