Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Post EOP Exam : Surgery

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 
Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah.
I just finished my End of Posting (EOP) exam for surgery today. Alhamdulillah everything went well. I got a case on left irreducible indirect inguinal hernia. I have done my very best so I left everything to Allah. I really hope that I could pass the exam, insyaAllah.

To be honest, I didn't study much for this posting. I didn't know why on earth that I became such a lazy bum. I hardly study. You could really count how many hours that I really spend to study. Plus, surgery was not my forte :(

And last week, I had a fever. It was all started on last Thursday when I woke up from my slept and I realized that my temperature had rose. Then, I also noticed that both of my eyes were swollen as well. Not urticaria again, I said to myself. 

And since my roommate, Arina also wanted to go to the Emergency department at HTAR that morning, I decided to go along with her. Long story short, my friend then was admitted to the ward because the doctor had suspected that she might suffered from dengue fever ( based on her conditions - fever, rashes etc) and as for me, I might had viral fever. I was like.. Oh no! The exam was just around the corner and tomorrow would be our case presentation (CP) and seminar. Even though I had done all the slides presentation but I still needed to read about the topic :( 

Later that night, I couldn't sleep well. My temperature kept spiking and didn't resolved though I had taken my medications and did tepid sponging. And I was all alone in the house since the rest were still on holiday and Arina was admitted to the ward.

The next morning, the CP and seminar went well. I was glad they were finally. Now that I could focus more on EOP. But my health condition was not in a good shape yet. I still had a fever. After I told my mom about my condition ( I was reluctant to tell my mom actually but coming to think about it and I was afraid if I had to be admitted to the ward or whatsover.. I thought maybe I should tell my mom anyway), my parents then came over to visit me T___T I told them not to because I wasn't alone at the moment. Jojie was here to keep me accompany for this weekend. But still..they came here. 

I wasn't fully recovered until yesterday (Monday). Alhamdulillah the fever had gone but I hadn't regained back my appetite. This was really frustrating. I was hungry but I couldn't eat :(

Moral of the story : The health is actually one of the blessings that given by Allah that we've always take for granted. Like for example, I always take for granted by not study and do my revision. Masa sihat tak nak belajar. Bila dah sakit, masa tu baru terhegeh-hegeh nak study. Nak fikir banyak lagi tak cover la, itu la, ini la. Haih *sigh*

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Abah's story

Walking along the hall, the scent of hospital pavement.. Ah, how could I forget.

It's been almost 10 years since I've been here. But this time it wasn't same as before.

10 years ago

I still remembered when it happened. It was Ramadhan. Few days before Ramadhan, Abah had complaint that he had fever, headche and felt extremely fatigue. We never thought anything serious. Ibu thought that he might suffered from dengue and decided they should go to the clinic then. 

On 4th of Ramadhan, when we were having our suhoor, Abah looked very tired and his headache had became severe. He couldn't walked properly. Ibu then decided to accompanied Abah to the clinic after suhoor.

At the clinic, the doctor said that he might have to refer Abah to HUKM since he couldn't find what's wrong with Abah. It was definitely not dengue or any other else. Ibu then drove Abah to HUKM.

The moment they arrived in front of the hospital, Abah suddenly collapsed. Since Ibu was small in size, she couldn't bear with Abah's weight very much.

While waiting for the doctors to come over and have a look what's wrong, Abah then threw a fit! Ibu was completely shocked.

Long story short, Abah then was sent for CT Scan. The doctor said that abah had a brain abscess on his left brain and needed to undergo surgery ASAP. Ibu broke into tears. 

At that time, I just went back from religious school (sekolah agama). I was completely mad because my parents hadn't come back yet and we didn't have food for our iftar. I immediately called Ibu and within seconds, she answered the phone. The moment when she told me about Abah's condition, I was blown away. At the age of 11 years old, this was too much for me. It was such a huge burden and I didn't think that I could bear it alone. But being the eldest one in my family I needed to stay strong in front of my brothers. I hated it when people saw me as a crybaby. 

During the Ramadhan, my aunt (Ibu's youngest sister) came over and took care of my siblings and I. Ibu never came back to our home because she was busy to take care of Abah since he had became hemiplegic (paralysed the whole upper and lower limbs of the right side of his body). I was very glad that Abah didn't loss his memory. 

That year, I got a first place in my class and became the best student in my batch while my 7 year-old brother got second. Our parents couldn't come to the ceremony to watch their children received their awards. I still remembered that I had to asked one of my friend's father to take a photo of me while received those awards. 

After 1st of Syawal, Abah was discharged but he still couldn't walk properly. He needed to use a wheelchair. And I remembered that I needed to help him up when he wanted to take wudhu'. That was the first time in my entire life that I needed to help someone to take wudhu'.

Now Alhamdulillah, Abah is going back to normal. He can write, walk, run, jog and drive like before. He still needs to take his medications tho, but this was the experience that I could never forget in whole entire life. 

(I decided to write this story because I went to visit my best friend's little sister who suffered from medulloblastoma and currently in HUKM. Please make du'a and pray for her. Jazakumullahu khair. May Allah bless you!)

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

the beauty of Islam

While we were in the ward, waiting for our specialist to come over to start our BST (bed side teaching) session, some of us greeted 'Selamat hari raya' to each other. Well, the eid wasn't finish yet huh? :)

Then, I heard this conversation between my friends; let's called them Mr. A and Mr.B.

Mr. A : Do you fast today (fasting  the six days of Syawal)?

Mr. B : Yes. Today is my first day. How about you?

Mr. A : Me too!

Then, my Indian friend, let's called him Mr. C came over to us. Upon hearing the conversation between Mr. A and Mr. B, he asked me,

Mr. C : Why does the muslim need to fast 6 days of Syawal?

Me : Actually, it is recommend to fast six days of the month of Syawal. It is sunnah not wajib. It is not compulsory. If you do it, you'll get more reward (pahala). The reward is equal to having fasted obligatory fasts the entire year days, according many scholars.

Mr. C : I've heard about it. I mean, if you do it, you'll be rewarded. So, how to do it? I mean is it necessary to fast straight for 6 days or what?

Me : It is permitted to fast these six days separately throughout the month, or consecutively. You can fast like for example; Monday and Thursday. As long as it is in this month of Syawal. It is not like Ramadhan. You can perform it starting from the 2nd day of Syawal up till the on of the month. 

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The point of I shared this story is not to boast about my knowledge or what. I somehow find it that some of my non-muslim friends have more knowledge about Islam rather than I did. For example, I still remembered that one of my Indian classmate knew more about the Battle of Badr, Battle of Uhud compared to the other muslim out there. I felt kinda ashamed actually because she knew more! We admitted that we're muslim but did we really know about the seerah? Did we really know about our own religion?

To be honest, I didn't get many chance to discuss more about Islam among my non-muslim friends as much as others. But I think as a Muslim, we should really show how beauty our deen is.. How beauty Islam is..

It doesn't mean that you have to go for preaching 24/7, but our little efforts do count. Da'wah doesn't mean that you have to give lectures, talks but our actions do count too!

You shared in the facebook lots and lots of things about the beauty of Islam, but do you really put them into practice? 
Example; as a Muslim, you know that the Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, defined a hypocrite as one who had three traits: 

1. When he speaks, he lies. 
2. When he promises, he does not deliver, 
3. When he is entrusted, he betrays. 

Here's the scenario where you promised to your friend that you'll come to meet him to have some discussions after the class finished. You promised to meet him at 5 pm, but you ended up to show yourself at 7 pm. You had promised him but then you were late! If you have definite reasons for it, may be you can be excused, but if you were late because you were busy doing unnecessary things (i.e: surfing the net, movie-marathon etc.), how's that? 

I may not a good Muslim but we have to strive to be better, right? 
inshaAllah :)
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without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Crush

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Have you ever feel that you have a crush on somebody?
You feel that even though you don't really know much about that person, but you know that you are meant together with him.
You believe that the fate has set on both of you.
He's the one for you.
You think that he is attractive,
You could tell that he is nice,
The butterflies in you are so active,
That you can't even think twice.

Well then, I might have exagerrated a lil' bit. Hahaha. Currently I am under the influenced of romance novels. Yeah. 

And the crush I meant just now?
I have so many crushes on the heroes from the novels that I have read. Booyah!
Blame me for overly attached to all those romance novels. Frankly speaking, I'm hopeless and helpless in term of being romantic. 
But now, after reading all those novels.. Gosh, I feel like I have set my heart on these male characters :)

Who's fault? Wattpad of course! *sigh*  -__________-


I know that I shouldn't behave like this. It's like a 16 year-old girl who was very flattered, her heart jumped with joy and wanted to scream her lungs out after seeing his crush walking across her and said "hi."
But trust me, I don't have any real crush in this world. Except if you count Orlando Bloom and Ben Barnes as my crushes ( just kidding!). Well, I am a drama queen.. ^__^v

Orlando Bloom

Ben Barnes
Silly me -.-

without wax,
haniyahaya :)