Saturday, November 29, 2014

End of Posting (EOP) Exam : Rotation 1

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.  
Alhamdulillah. I had finished my EOP exam for this rotation yesterday. My exam started on Tuesday and ended on Friday. Tbh it was a really exhausting week for me. I had 3 subjects that I needed to study; Ophtalmology, Otorhinolaryngology (ENT) and also Forensic Medicine. For both ENT and Ophthal, we had our EOP Clinical Exam whereas for Forensic Medicine we had our Viva! Not too forget that we also had our MCQs and OSCE for those subjects too! 

So let's started with Forensic first. I loved Forensic but viva? How it was going to be? Seriously I didn't have any clue for it since our batch were the first one who got to repeat this subject in Year 4. (We actually had studied it before when we were in Year 2 but due to some changes of the new curriculum, we have to repeat it back in Year 4). For the forensic viva, it was okay. I didn't know. I managed to spot the diagnosis correctly but I forgot the examples of anti-cholinergic drugs when the examiner asked me. (lame right?) That was the only question that I couldn't answer. But alhamdulillah the rest was okay. I got a case on anti-cholinergic poisoning and I needed to discuss about the diagnosis, antidote and also management for the case. 

For Ophthalmology EOP Clinical Exam, I was very worried. I didn't have enough chance to practice plus I hardly appreciate all those findings through direct ophthalmoscope. Blame me for being such a reckless student but among those three subjects, Ophthalmology was the one that I feared the most. In the afternoon before the exam had started, I could felt palpitations. My heart beats were very fast and I even lost count to that. But alhamdulillah it went well despite of my poor technique (sigh). The examiner asked me to do visual field test and I did it. But it wasn't like what I expected. The examiner was very kind enough to give me a second chance to do the test again and finally I got the finding. It was actually a case on bitemporal hemianopia (even though the patient wasn't a real patient--just a dummy). The discussion went well. The examiner told me that my discussion was good but my technique was poor. Ahhh! I didn't know what should I feel but I was very relieved as soon as the exam ended. At least half of my burden had gone away. I just hope that I could pass the exam. Pretty please? :) 

Last but not least, ENT EOP Clinical Exam. I got a case on left ear loss of hearing so that the examiner asked me to do the hearing test. I did the Rinne's and Weber's test respectively. I had a correct diagnosis but I missed it in my writting. The right answer should be : Left ear conductive hearing loss. But I just wrote : Conductive hearing loss. Ahhh :( then the examiner asked me about the frequency of normal ear can hear, the frequency of sound produce by human which both of them I wrongly answered! She then asked me to tell the part of tuning fork which I managed to answer 2/3 correct. Hahaha. Well I didn't expect that I would be questioned with such questions! But luckily I managed to answer the causes, investigations and management of this case correctly. 

Source :

It was true that I just only wanted to pass this exam but at some point I do want good grades. You see, last week we had received our Year 3 result. As for me, I got 3 honours and 1 pass. I felt somehow quite inferior among my friends because I didn't get all honours or even distinction. I knew that I should be grateful because I didn't have to repeat the exam or whatsoever. But still.. Ah! It somehow quite depressing because in this rats race of this medical world, people will only look for the best. But then I came across with this one blog which belonged to a doctor. She wrote there that as a medical student, you have to study but please do it sincerely because of Allah, because you want to help and treat people, not only just to pass the exam. Many of those medical students managed to pass their exams with flying colours but only few of them really did well in their housemanship training. Why? One of it is because of their lack of knowledge and skills. Those specialists and MOs didn't expect you to be like walking Davidson's (a thick medical textbook) but they expected you to know the basic things and what to do if this and that kind of situations happen. The moment I read the blog, I felt like a slap on my face! There you go! But I take it as a booster for myself to do better. I need to study hard and I pray that I could remember all those things that I've learnt so that it will be easier for me in the future. 

Source :

It is not the grade that matters but how much things that you could remember and applied it when all those circumstances happen right in front of you. 

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Friday, November 7, 2014

I'm a happy kid

Alhamdulillah after I waited for a long time, one of my wishes came true. I finally got myself a set of Harry Potter series. Wohooo! :)

I actually had read the entire series but yeah, all of them I had borrowed from my friends. I had been longing for this for a very looooong time. Hiks :)

I managed to get this set for only RM161.90 after 10% discount. Heeeee :) 

And upon writing this post I still couldn't believe it. I was in a cloud nine! Aha! 

I actually bought it from Book Xcess in Amcorp Mall, PJ. Book Xcess has become one of my favourite bookstores as I could get many story books at cheaper price! For a bibliophile like me, Book Xcess is a heaven! :) 

When I was browsing the books at there, I met this Indian gentleman which I gueseed he was around 60s. He greeted me good morning and I replied the same too to him and gave him a smile. He  also was browsing the books. After I had paid my books, I went to redeem my voucher. I then met the same Indian gentleman again. I could see that he bought a lot of books too. 
He then asked me with a gentle smile, "I could see that I buy many books compared to you. What have you bought just now?"
"Oh I got myself a set of Harry Potter series. I've been wanting this for a long time. I can see that you got yourself a lot of books," I replied.
"Yes. These are for my granddaughter and these are for myself. You know, book is actually your bestfriend. Even though you are alone, if you are reading books, you are not alone because it will accompany you."
"Yeah. Plus we will get a lot of informations."
"Reading a book too makes you feel that you are travel through time."
"Sure. Keep it up dear. I love to see the young generations like you to read a lot."
"Well sure. Thank you!"
"You're welcome. Have a nice day."

So there goes my chit-chat with him. I was very touched by his advices. Though we had never met before but his words were very meaningful. Thank you uncle for making up my day! 

Well as you can see, I like meeting new people. You can learn a lot from them. Learning is not only from books but there are thousands of ways for you to learn. Frankly speaking, I was a shy person back when I was in school. I hated that if I had to become an emcee for our morning assembely because I knew that I would stammered in front of those teachers and student. I hated if I had to do group presentation in front of my classmates because I could feel that there were butterflies in my stomach. I had a severe stage fright syndrome. Then as time passed by, I started to develop my communication skills because I felt so inferior towards my friends who can speak fluently in front of the audience. Later I started to greet everyone that I met to overcome my shyness. I then started to speak more in English to people that I met whether in KTM, at the shopping complex or hospital and etc. it really paid off. I still remembered that I tried to make a conversation with a Dutch guy. I felt kinda awkward at the first place but it was a good start for me. I didn't feel inferior to those mat salleh anymore. Hahaha. Now I didn't have troubles to make a good rapport with the patients at the hospital if I wanted to take their history. (Except for those patients who really didn't want to be asked by the students)

That's all from me. Till then.

Tadaaa!! This is mine! ^___^

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, November 4, 2014


I love to travel. Ever since I was a kid, I had a soft spot in maps. I used to memorized all the countries and their capitals because I wished to travel around the world. Plus I had read a story where there was this man who traveled all alone by himself across the globe. Cool isn't? 
I have even had my wishlist; my travel list. But the thing is that to travel is not that easy. It needs a good plan. You need to think about the flight tickets, accommodation, expenses and many more. And the most important thing: you need to have a good buddy or travel partner if you wish to travel with your friends. 
Make sure that your friends understand you and vice versa. If not you will not enjoy your trip. There's a saying that stated, "If you want to know your friends better, go travel with him/her." 
I am definitely agree to that statement. True! You will learn a lot about you friends' true colours. What does he/she like, how will they cope if something bad happens (for example if you're lost in the middle of nowhere) and many more. 
But yeah, to travel requires a lot of things to be done. I don't like it when some of people who don't really put their efforts in a way to make your trip happens. They just bragged about it but in the end, there was nothing happen. It was really sad you know. But yeah, you have planned for it but Allah is the Best Planner. 
Okay this is a very random post of mine. Never mind. 

without wax, 
haniyahaya :)

Ophthalmology posting

Alhamdulillah. Last week marked the end of my 2 weeks of ophthalmology posting. Frankly speaking I guessed ophthalmology was not really my forte. I wasn't saying that I hated it but I guessed it just didn't suit me well. Maybe it was due to my lack of practices and exposures. Huwaaa! I should practice more. The moment I just discovered the optic disc through the direct ophthalmoscope, the posting ended :( yeah! When you have found the optic disc is like you have just discovered golds! If you really know what I mean ;) *winks*
So this week would be my Forensic Medicine posting. I love forensic. Some of my friends said that I'm weird because I'm fond into that thing but yeah, it is cool you know. Forensic needs you to know a lot of things, make you think harder because you need to relate the medicine stuffs and all. But basically is all about logic. Muehehe. 
That's all from me now. Good night.

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Sunday, October 26, 2014

SPP Phase I by Mercy Malaysia

Last week, I got a chance to be a volunteer for School Preparedness Programme (SPP) Phase I by Mercy Malaysia at SKJT Sg Renggam, Seksyen 18, Shah Alam. Frankly speaking, I was reluctant to be a volunteer at the first place. Well, after I entered my fourth year of medical school, I knew that it wasn't like before. It was extremely hectic; not a honeymoon year I must say. 
So at the very last minute, I changed my mind. I said to myself, why not I just give it a try? We'll see how it go. To make it short, I was listed to be a volunteer at the primary school. Wow! This was something new because previously I'd been to secondary school for SPP Phase II. Plus, it was SKJT. I'd never been to such school before. I wasn't saying that I was being a racist but that's the truth. For all my life I'd never been there before. So, it was a new experience for me.

Nevertheless, it turned out not like what I'd expected to be. The students were very energetic, smart and full of enthusiasm along the programme. They were not shy. They participated and volunteered during the programme though the programme was for one whole day- morning till evening. I was very amazed by that. Besides that, we were treated like VIPs by the teachers and also the students. Not to forget their token of gratitude towards us :)

The teachers, students and volunteers
Source : haniyahaya's 

I'm so blessed to be part of this programme. It was never came across to my mind to join this kind of programme. It was an enjoyable experience for me that I could never forget. Kudos to all the teachers, students and also volunteers. Till we meet again next time :)

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Monday, October 20, 2014

ENT Posting

Last week marked the end of my two weeks of ENT posting. Two weeks of hectic weeks. I couldn't even get enough rest. There were lots of things that I needed to study and do (seminars, case presentation etc). Not to forget the homework that we all got from the MOs and specialists :)

Frankly speaking, at first I was kind of lost. I felt so down because there were so many things that I didn't know. I felt that I was such a pillock. My anatomy had gone far beyond that I could even imagine. Hahaha. All those nasopharynx, oropharynx and etc. I'd been in a funk at the first week. 

Coming to the second week, I felt that I needed to change. I didn't want to sit in the same position like last week. Alhamdulillah, Allah had granted my wish. During the second week I learnt a lot at the clinic. There were so many cases that I could learn and see, I could practice how to use the otoscope on the patient and visualize the TM and EAC clearly, I could learn how the endoscopy examination was done and many more. Big thanks to all the MOs and specialist at the HTAR and HSB who were willingly to teach my friends and I during our posting despite of they were all busy with their patients. Thank you. May God bless you all :D

Source :

During our last day of this posting, my heart began to feel very heavy. Oh no! So soon? I wished I had one more week for this posting. There were a lot of things that I wanted to learn. But anyway, hopefully I could passed this posting. Short posting is very scary you know! In two weeks time you need to cover everything and trust me, it really need a lot of efforts. You have to work hard because no one can spoon-feed you everything. 

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Welcome back to school!

Finally my holiday has just ended. I was a lil' bit sad I must say. Well who doesn't right?
Coming back to think of it, it seemed like I've never done anything beneficial during my holiday (besides my reading project)
I would love to go for a vacation to somewhere else but I didn't managed to book any flight tickets, hotels and so on and so forth because I was afraid that I could't make it to Year 4. Never mind. We still got plenty of time to plan for our next vacation right? 

Basically I'm in my forth year of medical school. Wow! Forth year already? So soon?
Honestly speaking, I never thought that I'm now a forth year student. It seemed like yesterday we just entered our third year, went to the hospital for the first time with our new white lab coat and brand-new stethoscope.. Ah, how time flies. I kinda missed my third year.

After the briefing this morning, we were being informed that forth year would be slightly different from last year. Last year we had four major postings; Internal Medicine, Surgery, Paediatrics and Obstetrics and Gynaecology. But now, we are going to sub-speciality postings/departments. 3 postings and 2 blocks.

The 3 postings are:

1) Primary Care
2) Psychiatry
3) Community Medicine

And the 2 blocks are:

1) ENT, Ophthalmology and Forensic Medicine
2) Radiology, Anaesthesiology and Orthopaedics

As for now, my first rotation for this year is the ENT, Ophthalmology and Forensic Medicine block. Wish me luck! :)

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Friday, October 3, 2014

September read

As you can see, my previous five posts were all about books. Well since I've nothing to do for this holidays I guessed it is the best for me to do some reading. Well I haven't read a lot for a quite some time.

So it's now October. Gosh how fast the time flies. It seemed like yesterday I'd just entered my clinical years and now I'm going to my fourth year of medical school? Jeez.

To wrap this up, here's the list of my books that I've read so far in September. And to be honest people, this month had been an amazing reading month! :)

Kopi-ah was borrowed from my friend, Mimi and
Tongkat Warrant Ini Saya Punya Kerja was with Mimi too
because I lent it to her
Source : haniyahaya's

1) Starter for Ten/David Nicholls - 3/5
2) Theodore Boone : The Accused/John Grisham - 4/5
3) A Girl Walks into a Wedding/ Helena S. Paige - 2/5
4) Kopi-ah/Abrar Shafie & Munirah Rashid - 3/5
5) Tongkat Warrant Ini Saya Punya Kerja/ Sasterawan Negara Usman Awang - 4/5
6) Sorry/Max Davidson - 4/5
7) The Hundred-Foot Journey/ Richard C. Morais - 4/5
8) Gifted Hands: The Ben Carson Story/ Ben Carson & Cecil Murphey - 5/5
9) Wacana Hitam Putih (Antologi Cerpen dan Sajak Hadiah Sastera Utusan Melayu & Public Bank) - 4/5
10) School Fail/Anna Tripp - 3/5
11) House, M.D. VS Reality/Andrew Holtz - 5/5

That's all peeps! I'm looking forward for another great reading month :)

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Monday, September 29, 2014

I love reading

I love reading. Who doesn't love reading? Reading is like an escape for me. All these while you live in a hectic life so reading is the only time for you to escape for awhile from all those things that had occupied you. 

I started reading since I was 4 years old (I guessed so. I knew how to read some time before that, but it was just at the age of 4 I was into the habit of reading). My parents were the major influence of why I loved to read. When I was a little kid, my mom would tell me stories or read me some story books before I went to the bed. Later I could read by own so I started reading by myself before I went to sleep. No more story telling before sleep. At that time I loved colourful story books. I still remembered when my 6th birthday, my mother gave me a lot of story books as my birthday present. I guessed there were about 20 books. Heaven! :) 

As I grew up, my mother then introduced me to some heavy reading materials. My mother introduced me to cerpen (shirt-stories in Malay) and also light Malay novels. I remembered that my parents never failed to bring me to Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka (DBP) every time there were book fairs at there. My mother even showed me on how to choose a good book (read : short stories and novels).

Since my mother loved the veteran authors like Fatimah Busu, Khadijah Hashim and Othman Puteh (just to name a few), so that gene was passed to me as well. According to my mother, in a way to find a good book, look at the author and also the year of the book was published. If the books was published around 1990-1999, then we could buy that book. At that time I was only 6 and I followed her instructions without any doubt. For the romance novels, there were all forbidden to me! And now I really thanked my mother for introducing me to all those veterans authors. Call me skema or old-fashioned or anything but for me, I never read Malay love story novels! I rather read our Antalogi Cerpen dan Puisi when we were in Form 1-5 rather than reading those lovey-dovey novels. 

So my mom was my biggest influence of reading Malay materials. She even had subscribed for me Arus Sains, a science-based magazine in Malay. At the age of 9, I could even cry when read those sad short stories or novels. Basically it was all because of my mom's influence :)

Then at the age of 9 too, there was a change in my life. Since I had moved to Bangi, I'd been surrounded by brilliant and clever kids. Not to mention their English were very good. At that time, all my girlfriends were in loved with Mary Kate and Ashley's series. I then challenged myself, why not I gave it a try? Well reading English novel wasn't that half bad was it? Before this I only read English story books but this time, I tried to make a difference. 

So then I became a big fan of Mary Kate and Ashley. The Adventure of Mary Kate and Ashley, Two of A Kind, Sweet 16, So Little Time.. you named it! I even tried to cut my hair just like them. Hahaha.

I found this at BookXcess. Well look at the price! *smirk*
Source : haniyahaya's

I then moved to Sweet Valley Jr High as my friend, Raihan had introduced me. And trust me, those books were great! I also started to read The Famous Five and Nancy Drew series. I always spent my recess time at the library, reading books. I even could admitted that  I had finished reading all those books in my school library at that time :)
And yeah, here's the catch, I never bought English novels. What I did was- I borrowed them from my friends. And I was very happy to received a 'Mary Kate & Ashley : Two of A Kind' book as my 11th birthday gift from my friend. ( Too bad I still couldn't find that book though)

When I was in secondary school, I had entered a boarding school. So my whole life as a high school student was at the boarding school. At that time, I still remembered that during English period, we sometime had a programme called reading programme. Our English teacher would gave us one story book for each of us so that we could read for the whole week. Those books had their own level. Level 3, 4, 5 and 6. The first book that I received was 'Men in Black' and it was a level 3 book. I had completed reading it within an hour! Then I decided to read some of friends book which were level 5-6. That was when I knew John Grisham. There was a book written by John Grisham which had been simplified. I really enjoyed reading it.

During our prep hours in the afternoon, I always went to the library. Even though we had our extra class, I always managed to sneak into the library. I became one of the members who loved reading the old books which hadn't been read for almost 10 years. I still remembered there was a time I wanted to borrow a Malay book. That books was ugly and full of dust. 
The librarian looked up at me and asked me,
"Are you serious that you want to borrow this book? This book is old. I mean, look at this. The last person who even borrowed it was 10 years ago."

I replied to him with a sarcasm note, "Yes. Why? Is it a crime if I borrow the old book?"

Well, he was my junior so he couldn't talked much about it. Senior ruled right? 

Even at TGB, I still continued that habit. I didn't know. I just loved to spend my prep hours at the library. It gave me peace and calmness. Besides it was a nice place for you to take a nap :)

When I was in secondary school too, I started reading much heavier reading materials like Harry Potter, A Series of Unfortunate Events, Meg Cabot's novels and many more. Mostly were young adults, chic-lit kind of books. Big thanks to all my friends who were very kind enough to give me permission to borrow their books. I then started to grow interest in mystery and adventure kind of books like John Grisham's, Sherlock Holmes and etc. I just loved all those goosebumps that I had when reading those kind of story lines. I guessed it must probably because of the hormones. You know those changing period to adolescence. You started to find your own track, you started to find yourself. So I guessed my reading materials also jumbled up like my hormones. 

Now, I kinda liked romance novels. But please bear in mind that I only read English romance novels. People might said that I am biased, but I just couldn't stand reading all those mushy Malay novels. Don't get me wrong. I still read Malay novels, but like I said before.. I'm very particular and choosy enough when it comes to books. That's why I prefer to go alone when I'm shopping ( Never mind. I hardly go for shopping, meh) or going to bookstores. It takes me like ages to choose something that I like!

I actually have a dream. Since I was a little kid, I'd been dreaming to have my own library. And now coming to think of that, I've been dreaming to have my own book cafe; a library with a cafe together. So people can enjoy their sweet time reading their favourite books while sipping a cup of tea or coffee. Yummy! (^__^)

So that's my story of how I grow up and love reading. How about yours? Don't you mind to share it with me? :)

Last but not least, let me take a bookshelfie! :D

Here's some of my collection. 

Regarding the book shelf:
1. (Top Left and Right) - All English novels
2. (Left) - All my medical books
    (Right) - All Malay novels
3. (Left) - Medical books + School Year Books
   (Right) - My medical notes & All the notes when I went to halaqa(usrah)/conventions/course (eg: Twins of Faith/K-Fiqh)
4. (Bottom Left and Right) - All my printed medical notes from Year 1-2

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Monday, September 22, 2014

Book review for this week

Source : haniyahaya

Title/Author: Gifted Hands : The Ben Carson Story / Ben Carson with Cecil Murphey

A wonderful book! I really enjoyed reading about Ben Carson and his story. The moment when I read the letter from her mother, Sonya Carson  I knew that I just couldn't help myself from flipping through all the pages. (And yeah, I finished this book within a day!)

"Ultimately, it's you who decides whether you will be success or not, by doing what is legally necessary to get you where you want to go. You are the captain of your own ship. If you don't succeed, you only have yourself to blame." -Sonya Carson

I really loved how his mother played a major role in forming him and also his older brother. She always encouraged both of them to be the best that they could be, to do well in school, having them read at least two books in a week and only allowed them to watch not more than three TV shows in a week :O

I also liked Ben's belief in God although he's not a Muslim. Ben never took credit for his accomplishments, but returned all the credits to God. He also always said his prayer before conducting any surgeries. That's one thing that every one of us should put into practice. As a Muslim, du'a is our biggest weapon. We should make du’a at all times and for everything we do, whether it be big or small, because nothing is too big or too small for Allah. :)

In the end, I loved how he put in the key of success-- THINK BIG.

"If you can remember these things, if you can learn THINK BIG, nothing on earth will keep you from being successful in whatever you choose to do." -Dr Ben Carson

Wanna know what's hidden behind THINK BIG? You gotta read this book! :D

Rating : 5/5

Title/Author : The Hundred-Foot Journey/ Richard C. Morais

The reason I bought this book at the first place was I seemed to be attracted to the synopsis behind of this book. And of course, those testimonials also one of the  reasons I bought it. And of course I can't even helped myself from imagined those food that Hassan had cooked. My mouth became so watery, and of course I can even heard the borborygmi sound which indicated that my satiety centre had been stimulated while reading this book. Overall it was a good book! I can't wait for its movie so be released soon.

Rating : 4/5

Title/Author : Sorry / Max Davidson

An interesting non-fictional book I must say. I set my heart on this book when I first saw the title itself. I was wondering, "Just sorry ey for your title. Seem pretty cool to me." The rest is history.
When I read this book, I learnt lots and lots of new words which I believed these could improve my vocabulary. I did scribble a lot in this book. Never in my life I scribbled so much in a non-fictional book. I loved how the author put the art of apologizing into a book and turned out to be a brilliant book! I even wrote down some of the quotes that really touched my heart when I read this. And all those examples given, they were so real (may be some of them were not). But I recommended this book to all of you. Seriously folks, we are indeed to improve our manners! The art of apologising is not only to say sorry, maybe to some extend you need to take the blame to make this world a better place.

"Just misplaced chivalry, some would say, but what is wrong with a bit of chivalry in our backbitting world?" 

Rating :4/5

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Monday, September 15, 2014

#5books7days challenge - Part 3

It's a wrap people for this #5books7days challenge!
I actually took about 8 days actually to complete it. HAHAHA. Well, Maybe I can do better next time!

So, since the forth and fifth books were written in Malay, I shall proceed the book reviews in Bahasa Melayu :)


Sebenarnya gambar kedua-dua buku ini tiada kerana 
1) untuk buku yang keempat, ianya merupakan buku yang saya pinjam daripada sahabat saya, Mimi.
2) untuk buku yang kelima, ianya pula telah dipinjam oleh Mimi. Tak sempat nak ambil gambar walaupun saya sudah membelinya sudah sekian lama (masa Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur 2014 tempoh hari)

Baiklah, kita teruskan..

Untuk buku keempat

Tajuk/Penulis : Kopi-ah/ Abrar Shafie & Munirah Rashid

Sumber :

Buku ini merupakan antologi cerpen Islamik. Buat pertama kalinya dalam sejarah saya membaca buku terbitan Lejen Press. Sememangnya saya sendiri ialah penggemar cerpen dan tatkala membaca naskah ini saya merasakan kedua penulis telah melakukan yang terbaik. Ingat senang ke nak tulis cerpen? Tu belum lagi novel. Jujur saya katakan, penulisan Abrar lebih saya minati kerana gayanya yang bersahaja namun untuk Munirah saya amat kagum kerana beliau mampu mengupas tentang isu Pattani yang rata-rata kebanyakan dalam kalangan kita tidak cakna langsung tentang isu tersebut.

Rating : 3/5

Untuk buku kelima pula..

Tajuk/Penulis : Tongkat Warrant Ini Saya Punya Kerja/ Sasterawan Negara Usman Awang

Saya amat suka sekali membaca hasil karya penulis-penulis veteran. Dalam buku ini terdapat koleksi cerpen dan juga puisi hasil nukilan Sasterawan Negara kita, Usman Awang. Bagi saya buku ini amat menarik. Dalam buku ini juga terdapat cerpen-cerpen yang saya kira saya pernah baca sebelum ini, tetapi tidak ingat bila dan di mana. 

Rating : 4/5

Sekian sahaja untuk kali ini.
Anda pula bagaimana?
Sudah berapa banyak buku yang sudah dibaca?

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Thursday, September 11, 2014

#5books7days challenge! -Part 2

If you haven't read about this #5books7days challenge, I guess it's better for you to do so as I have mentioned it before in my previous post. 
So now, I'm going to give you my book reviews for this challenge.

So here it goes..


Source : instagram of @haniyahaya

Title/Author : Starter for Ten/ David Nicholls
The reason I bought this book at the first place is because I just loved how the writer put trivias and answers for each new chapters in this book. It is really cool for me since I really love trivias. Basically the story isn't half bad. I just realised that they already made it into a movie. Brian Jackson was potrayed by James McAvoy and Patrick Watts was potrayed by Benedict Cumberbatch. I need to watch the movie soon. I just can't imagine nerdy Benedict as the captain of the Challenge team.
Rating : 3/5

Title/Author : Theodore Boone The Accused/ John Grisham
I'm a big fan of John Grisham's works.This book is great. It is so action packed and full of excitement. It is the third book in the Theodore Boone series. (I haven't read the previous two books-gotta find them!) There are lots of cliffhangers after every chapter, so it just makes you want to read more. I recommend this book to anyone who likes mystery, and anticipation/excitement. 
Rating : 4/5

Title/Author : A Girl Walks Into a Wedding: Your Fantasy, Your Rule/ Helena S. Paige
It's written in 2nd-person and it's the second time I read this kind of book. It's a choose-your-own adventure style book. So, it is up to you to choose how's your story going to be like. And trust me, it's a very quick read - I even read through several different scenarios! 
Rating : 2/5

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

#5books7days challenge! -Part 1

So a week before my EOP Theory exam, I was busy scrolling down the Instagram. Ahem! I knew I shouldn't do that but I just can't resist the temptation of Instagram. It wasn't because of the online shop in the Instagram.. (Believe me, I never shopped via online in my entire life!) But.. It was due to these whole Instagram's accounts that I'd been following recently. 

Recently I just figured out some good accounts that were all about books. It was really amazing you know for a bibliophile! Heck I didn't study much during my study week but I was busy planning what book should I read next after I finished the exam -.- (yeah kill me now!)

And then, I came across with this #5books7days challenge. What you have to do in this challenge is that, you need to read 5 books within a week (7 days). It's like a readathon (or some sort of like that I guess). I found it really amusing as I haven't read story books that much for ages! (Those stories on Wattpad didn't count ey?) Plus, since I'd nothing to do for this break, I guessesd it was good for me to cultivate back my reading habit. I found out that my reading pace had been slower than before. 

For example; before this, it only takes me about 2-3 days to finish up one novel but currently I need 1-2 week to finish up a novel. Sometimes I even get bored to it and decide not to read it anymore. Pretty bad huh? 

So how about you? Don't you dare to take up this challenge?

Source : instagram of @haniyahaya

without wax, 
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Post EOP Theory Exam

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wavarakatuh.

Alhamdulillah I had finished my EOP Theory exam last Friday. Basically for this one-week exam (4 days to be precised), we had Medicine, Paediatrics, O&G and last but not least, Surgery papers. 

I had done my very best though I still thought that I could do better. I sometimes felt that I was such a pillock. The answers that I wrote down were horribly awful and fatuous especially for O&G SEQ papers (tho O&G is one of my favourite postings) -.-
But whatever it is, it is over. I cannot simply go back to the past and changed what need to be changed. Well I'm not a time traveller.

And Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah--Today, I'm officially had passed my Year 3! 
Year 3 had taught me so many things in my life. I realized that this path is not as easy. It is not like those TV shows that you'd watched. Seriously! But a journey as a medical student is like a roller coaster; there are ups and downs of it and I really love every single bit of it :)

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for you blessings. Big thanks to my parents who are always there for me when I am in my fragile state, my supportive friends, the HTAR staff and last but not least, all the patients at HTAR. For those patients who I had clerked before this, thank you so much for your time and willingness. It was a pleasure for me because I could learn so many things from you. Without you, I might not be able to survive till now. So again, thank you so much! May Allah repay all your kindness.

My comrades with Dr Atif and Dr Pandit :D

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Post EOP Exam : Surgery

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. 
Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah.
I just finished my End of Posting (EOP) exam for surgery today. Alhamdulillah everything went well. I got a case on left irreducible indirect inguinal hernia. I have done my very best so I left everything to Allah. I really hope that I could pass the exam, insyaAllah.

To be honest, I didn't study much for this posting. I didn't know why on earth that I became such a lazy bum. I hardly study. You could really count how many hours that I really spend to study. Plus, surgery was not my forte :(

And last week, I had a fever. It was all started on last Thursday when I woke up from my slept and I realized that my temperature had rose. Then, I also noticed that both of my eyes were swollen as well. Not urticaria again, I said to myself. 

And since my roommate, Arina also wanted to go to the Emergency department at HTAR that morning, I decided to go along with her. Long story short, my friend then was admitted to the ward because the doctor had suspected that she might suffered from dengue fever ( based on her conditions - fever, rashes etc) and as for me, I might had viral fever. I was like.. Oh no! The exam was just around the corner and tomorrow would be our case presentation (CP) and seminar. Even though I had done all the slides presentation but I still needed to read about the topic :( 

Later that night, I couldn't sleep well. My temperature kept spiking and didn't resolved though I had taken my medications and did tepid sponging. And I was all alone in the house since the rest were still on holiday and Arina was admitted to the ward.

The next morning, the CP and seminar went well. I was glad they were finally. Now that I could focus more on EOP. But my health condition was not in a good shape yet. I still had a fever. After I told my mom about my condition ( I was reluctant to tell my mom actually but coming to think about it and I was afraid if I had to be admitted to the ward or whatsover.. I thought maybe I should tell my mom anyway), my parents then came over to visit me T___T I told them not to because I wasn't alone at the moment. Jojie was here to keep me accompany for this weekend. But still..they came here. 

I wasn't fully recovered until yesterday (Monday). Alhamdulillah the fever had gone but I hadn't regained back my appetite. This was really frustrating. I was hungry but I couldn't eat :(

Moral of the story : The health is actually one of the blessings that given by Allah that we've always take for granted. Like for example, I always take for granted by not study and do my revision. Masa sihat tak nak belajar. Bila dah sakit, masa tu baru terhegeh-hegeh nak study. Nak fikir banyak lagi tak cover la, itu la, ini la. Haih *sigh*

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Abah's story

Walking along the hall, the scent of hospital pavement.. Ah, how could I forget.

It's been almost 10 years since I've been here. But this time it wasn't same as before.

10 years ago

I still remembered when it happened. It was Ramadhan. Few days before Ramadhan, Abah had complaint that he had fever, headche and felt extremely fatigue. We never thought anything serious. Ibu thought that he might suffered from dengue and decided they should go to the clinic then. 

On 4th of Ramadhan, when we were having our suhoor, Abah looked very tired and his headache had became severe. He couldn't walked properly. Ibu then decided to accompanied Abah to the clinic after suhoor.

At the clinic, the doctor said that he might have to refer Abah to HUKM since he couldn't find what's wrong with Abah. It was definitely not dengue or any other else. Ibu then drove Abah to HUKM.

The moment they arrived in front of the hospital, Abah suddenly collapsed. Since Ibu was small in size, she couldn't bear with Abah's weight very much.

While waiting for the doctors to come over and have a look what's wrong, Abah then threw a fit! Ibu was completely shocked.

Long story short, Abah then was sent for CT Scan. The doctor said that abah had a brain abscess on his left brain and needed to undergo surgery ASAP. Ibu broke into tears. 

At that time, I just went back from religious school (sekolah agama). I was completely mad because my parents hadn't come back yet and we didn't have food for our iftar. I immediately called Ibu and within seconds, she answered the phone. The moment when she told me about Abah's condition, I was blown away. At the age of 11 years old, this was too much for me. It was such a huge burden and I didn't think that I could bear it alone. But being the eldest one in my family I needed to stay strong in front of my brothers. I hated it when people saw me as a crybaby. 

During the Ramadhan, my aunt (Ibu's youngest sister) came over and took care of my siblings and I. Ibu never came back to our home because she was busy to take care of Abah since he had became hemiplegic (paralysed the whole upper and lower limbs of the right side of his body). I was very glad that Abah didn't loss his memory. 

That year, I got a first place in my class and became the best student in my batch while my 7 year-old brother got second. Our parents couldn't come to the ceremony to watch their children received their awards. I still remembered that I had to asked one of my friend's father to take a photo of me while received those awards. 

After 1st of Syawal, Abah was discharged but he still couldn't walk properly. He needed to use a wheelchair. And I remembered that I needed to help him up when he wanted to take wudhu'. That was the first time in my entire life that I needed to help someone to take wudhu'.

Now Alhamdulillah, Abah is going back to normal. He can write, walk, run, jog and drive like before. He still needs to take his medications tho, but this was the experience that I could never forget in whole entire life. 

(I decided to write this story because I went to visit my best friend's little sister who suffered from medulloblastoma and currently in HUKM. Please make du'a and pray for her. Jazakumullahu khair. May Allah bless you!)

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

the beauty of Islam

While we were in the ward, waiting for our specialist to come over to start our BST (bed side teaching) session, some of us greeted 'Selamat hari raya' to each other. Well, the eid wasn't finish yet huh? :)

Then, I heard this conversation between my friends; let's called them Mr. A and Mr.B.

Mr. A : Do you fast today (fasting  the six days of Syawal)?

Mr. B : Yes. Today is my first day. How about you?

Mr. A : Me too!

Then, my Indian friend, let's called him Mr. C came over to us. Upon hearing the conversation between Mr. A and Mr. B, he asked me,

Mr. C : Why does the muslim need to fast 6 days of Syawal?

Me : Actually, it is recommend to fast six days of the month of Syawal. It is sunnah not wajib. It is not compulsory. If you do it, you'll get more reward (pahala). The reward is equal to having fasted obligatory fasts the entire year days, according many scholars.

Mr. C : I've heard about it. I mean, if you do it, you'll be rewarded. So, how to do it? I mean is it necessary to fast straight for 6 days or what?

Me : It is permitted to fast these six days separately throughout the month, or consecutively. You can fast like for example; Monday and Thursday. As long as it is in this month of Syawal. It is not like Ramadhan. You can perform it starting from the 2nd day of Syawal up till the on of the month. 


The point of I shared this story is not to boast about my knowledge or what. I somehow find it that some of my non-muslim friends have more knowledge about Islam rather than I did. For example, I still remembered that one of my Indian classmate knew more about the Battle of Badr, Battle of Uhud compared to the other muslim out there. I felt kinda ashamed actually because she knew more! We admitted that we're muslim but did we really know about the seerah? Did we really know about our own religion?

To be honest, I didn't get many chance to discuss more about Islam among my non-muslim friends as much as others. But I think as a Muslim, we should really show how beauty our deen is.. How beauty Islam is..

It doesn't mean that you have to go for preaching 24/7, but our little efforts do count. Da'wah doesn't mean that you have to give lectures, talks but our actions do count too!

You shared in the facebook lots and lots of things about the beauty of Islam, but do you really put them into practice? 
Example; as a Muslim, you know that the Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him, defined a hypocrite as one who had three traits: 

1. When he speaks, he lies. 
2. When he promises, he does not deliver, 
3. When he is entrusted, he betrays. 

Here's the scenario where you promised to your friend that you'll come to meet him to have some discussions after the class finished. You promised to meet him at 5 pm, but you ended up to show yourself at 7 pm. You had promised him but then you were late! If you have definite reasons for it, may be you can be excused, but if you were late because you were busy doing unnecessary things (i.e: surfing the net, movie-marathon etc.), how's that? 

I may not a good Muslim but we have to strive to be better, right? 
inshaAllah :)
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without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, August 5, 2014


Source :

Have you ever feel that you have a crush on somebody?
You feel that even though you don't really know much about that person, but you know that you are meant together with him.
You believe that the fate has set on both of you.
He's the one for you.
You think that he is attractive,
You could tell that he is nice,
The butterflies in you are so active,
That you can't even think twice.

Well then, I might have exagerrated a lil' bit. Hahaha. Currently I am under the influenced of romance novels. Yeah. 

And the crush I meant just now?
I have so many crushes on the heroes from the novels that I have read. Booyah!
Blame me for overly attached to all those romance novels. Frankly speaking, I'm hopeless and helpless in term of being romantic. 
But now, after reading all those novels.. Gosh, I feel like I have set my heart on these male characters :)

Who's fault? Wattpad of course! *sigh*  -__________-

I know that I shouldn't behave like this. It's like a 16 year-old girl who was very flattered, her heart jumped with joy and wanted to scream her lungs out after seeing his crush walking across her and said "hi."
But trust me, I don't have any real crush in this world. Except if you count Orlando Bloom and Ben Barnes as my crushes ( just kidding!). Well, I am a drama queen.. ^__^v

Orlando Bloom

Ben Barnes
Silly me -.-

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Iftar with the girls :)

After I arrived home from the programme-GPS Ramadhan, I quickly rushed to the bathroom since I have promised to break the fast with my ex-Gerik friends. Well, I felt so excited since this was the time that we can gather after so long we hadn't meet each other.

We decided to meet up at Teh Tarik Place at Nu Sentral. There were Asilah, Saz, Hilda, Khaira, Pipah, Nana, Ma and Fatin. We hung out for about 4 hours but we never realized that the time had passed by.. Seriously, after a long time, it was really good to catch up with your friends. Reminiscing the old days back then when we were in MRSM. Gosh, I really missed those moments. 

Back when we were in MRSM Gerik, we were very close I must say. We used to go to prep together, eat together, sit in the same spot in surau together, stay up late at night and have pillow talk together and the list went on and on. Those memories were never failed to make me smile. I had such amazing memories in Gerik and you guys were those who made my life at there colourful. Through ups and downs, you were there for me. Thank you so much!

From left: Fatin, me, Nana, Khaira, Ma, Pipah, Hil, Saz & Asilah

Not in the picture : Pipah

Us :)

though it was a short gathering, but it was fun! ^__^

It was really great to meet you guys! Though Han, Alin and Ben weren't there to join us.. Hopefully we can meet again next time- but with complete team of us! InsyaAllah. Till we meet again!

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

GPS Ramadhan

Last weekend, I joined a community service programme which was organized by my faculty, International Medical School (IMS). The program was called GPS Ramadhan. It was held at Seri Menanti, Negeri Sembilan. At first, I was kinda refused to join this programme because it was held in Ramadhan. Dude, it's Ramadhan we're talking about. I'm going to flat at the end of the day because of extreme exhaustion, dehydration and many more to come (such a drama queen Hani!). But i told myself, well it wasn't half bad either. Why don't I give it a try. It would be a good experience for me since I hadn't join a community service which was held in Ramadhan. 

Basically this two days and one night program was about to help and serve the community in Seri Menanti. We departed from MSU at 8 a.m. and arrived about 10.30 a.m. After a short brief, we started our program with 'gotong-royong'. Since we had been divided into smaller groups, my group had been in charge to clean the area of the shop lot. But what happened was, we ended up cleaning Uncle Md Yasin's house. It was fine with us since Uncle Md Yasin was a very kind man. He even helped us too! We were being informed that his mother-in-law currently was sick and she hadn't be able to move around since 9 years ago. She was 86 years old and currently lived with his youngest child (which was Uncle Md Yasin's brother-in-law). Their houses were opposite to each other. After the 'gotong-royong', we then got a chance to pluck buah kundang (a.k.a buah setar/plum mango). Buah kundang is somehow like a mango, but it is much smaller than mango. We had to use a long stick which was tied with a plastic bottle at one end of it to pluck the fruits. (it seemed like galah but it doesn't have a sharp blade at one of the end of the stick)

Jojo was trying to pluck the fruits :)
After that, we continued to help some of friends to clear up the bushes at one of the old house. There was no one lived in that house. We were told that the house had been left for years because the owner had moved to somewhere else, but Uncle Md Yasin had asked permission from the owner for us to clean his house. It was tiring because it has been like ages since the last time I did this kind of thing. Dah lama tak menebas semak! Aging process. I have to accept the fact that I'm old now. Hehehe :)

In the evening, after the ice breaking, my friends and I decided to go to Istana Seri Menanti. It is also known as Istana Lama Seri Menanti. It is now open to public and become a museum. A very must-visit-place if go  for a holiday in Negeri Sembilan! It wasn't that far so we just walked there. It was a great experience. We could see such a nice view from the top of the museum and learnt a lot of history. Gggaaahhh!! It was almost 4 years since SPM was over. But somehow it was really nice to recall back the history that you'd learnt in high school. See how much your brain still remember all the facts!

on our way to go to Istana Seri Menanti :)

From right : FA, Aina and me inside the palace. 

Aina and me in front of the palace :)
At night, after the teraweeh prayer, we ate moreh. The mee and apam balik were so delicious! Seriously! Hahaha. Then, we had discussion for tomorrow's activity. For my group, our task was medical check-up for paediatrics which was basically for primary school student. I loved it since Paediatrics was one of my favourite postings (so far). 

The next morning, during the medical check-up, Dr Raihan came by. I never met her before. Later that I knew, she taught Physiology in IMS, but before this, she was a MO in Paediatrics department in Hospital Sungai Buloh. How cool was it?! She taught us many things and I felt so happy because we learnt a lot from her. Thank you so much Dr Raihan! :)

After the closing ceremony, we went back home at 2.00 pm and safely arrived at MSU at 3.50 p.m. It was an enjoyable experience for me. I'm looking forward for the next program. InsyaAllah :)

After the closing ceremony with Mdm Sofia,
 my mentor during our foundation
From right: FA, Oni, Mdm Sofia, Syira, me, Nina, Jiha, Aina & Jojie

From right : Syira, Shatiya, Dr Thanda Oo (Radiologist), Jiha, Oni,
Dr Myo (O&G specialist), Jojie, me and Aina

Goodbye Seri Menanti! Till we meet again! :D

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

Friday, July 11, 2014

Random thoughts #1

It's been almost 5 years since I started to write in this blog. I still remembered that I started to write in early 2009 because I have nothing much to do after PMR was over. When I first say my friend, Hilda wrote on her blog, it inspired me to sign up one. 

Not many of people knew that I loved to write (or ramble?). I love reading as well as writing. I once had been dreaming to become a writer one day. Hahaha. 

When I was a kid, I used to write short stories in my exercise books. I also used to draw comics which I found it was kinda funny when I thought about that again. 

Then when blogs became popular, I started to sign up for it and write everything that I want to tell. If you had noticed, I started to write in Malay, then because of SPM, I started to write in English because I want to improve my writing skill ( though no one will be ever give marks for me for what I've been writing ). Then after SPM was over, I started to write in Malay back. And now, I mixed my writing with English and Malay. It seemed like I didn't have a firm stand whether to write in English or Malay, right? Well let's just say it that I just followed the flow. (typical answer)

I still remembered when I was in boarding school, I loved to pour all my feelings into this blog. I tried to sneak into the library and went online even though only for a short time just because I want to keep posting in this blog. Basically my ramblings were due to school, homework, exams and etc. I even rushed to the library right after the Isya' prayer because I wanted to make sure that I got a PC to online and keep blogging. That was when writing became one of my passions.

After SPM was over, I also wrote a story (or can I called it a novel? heh). The title was 'Sahabat selamanya' (I know it is lame! but I couldn't find a right title for it. It was literally translated from friends forever. Well lame. yeah I know)
For those people who have been following me long enough (err..-___-), you probably had read it before. Then I stopped published it in my blog due to some reasons. The major problem is I was very lazy to type it since the masterpiece (HAHA!) was actually hand-written. (Well how cool is that?) I wanted to continue posting it but... I was such a lazy bum. (hands down)

Well I think I'm better off now. So much for my rambling today.

without wax,
haniyahaya :)

p/s: One of the major problems that I faced when I wanted to write in English is I do lots and lots of grammatical error and lack of vocabulary. So I'm so sorry if there are lots of grammatical errors ( Hello there Grammar Nazi!) and my posts are lame because they are not catching your eyes or hearts.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

SPP Phase 2 by Mercy Malaysia

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Last week, I've got a chance to join a program under MERCY Malaysia which was called School Preparedness Program (SPP) Phase 2. The program was held at SMK Canossa Convent, Melaka. This was my first time to join this kind of a program; to be a volunteer and also a facilitator. Frankly speaking, I love to be a volunteer. You will gain a lot of experiences which you could never get in the class. 

Basically this program was the continuation of the SPP Phase 1. Since I'd never join the previous program, I couldn't say much about it. But for the second phase, this program really rocks! It was awesome and I've never been into such program before. SPP Phase 2 more or less is actually to make the students to recall back, what have they learned before this. In this program, I've got to be a facilitator. My job was to be at one of the check point during DRR Race and also to guide my group members along the activity. It was fun. Seriously. Even though this program was held only for a day, (half day to be precise) but I enjoyed it very much. I really hope that I can join again this kind of program next time. InsyaAllah.

with the student and facilitators

The school was near the beach. After the program ended,
 we went to the beach to enjoy the breath-taking scenery. 

After that, we went to have our lunch. We went to Row Six Restaurant. What could I say more.. the food were delicious! (Plus, I didn't have to pay for it!)

Pulut Mangga

Mango sago with cream.
Trust me, this one was superb! :D

Left (Mine) :  Massama seafood with rice and satay.
The satay were awesome!
Right ( Kak Su's) : Tom Yam with rice and satay.
The tom yam was good!

Cockle in Thai Sauce


Many people asked me how can I join this kind of program? Well, basically I print out the volunteer form in MERCY Malaysia and submit it. There you go. As simple as that! After send in the form, ( Make sure you post it!) you'll be called to join the program (depends on what program I guess). So, what are you waiting for? Register now!

without wax,
haniyahaya :)